心魔

Recently I've totally lost my mind. The formula which I've been using for 30 years is now not working. Lose confidence, lose decision-making ability, lose problem-solving skill. I don't know what to do. I become not myself. The feeling is so strange. I've tried to be a 'good' person (at least, pretend to be) for the past 30 years. Now I don't know how to face my 'dark' side, another me. I don't like that dark side, and don't know how to control her. My mentality is so weak!

Many things I thought I knew, but actually I don't know.
Many things I thought I was, but actually I'm not.
Many things I thought I could do, but actually I don't have such ability.

Who am I? What will I be? I'm so scared. Scared about future. Scared to influence others.

I'm sick, I knew. Seriously. I prayed and prayed. Now I start to read Bible and Buddha stories. Hope that God will guide me the way and Wisdom will lead me the correct road.

One thing, the most important thing, I wish, truly from my heart: I hope my sickness won't hurt the people I love.

困局

身處困局, 求明燈顯示, Praying....

一刻永恆

初次吃自助餐　來慶祝升上了高班
這個放任傍晚　甜美永遠活在心間
初吻愛人時間　忘記這渡輪沒加班
於沙灘裡暢談　直到潮岸逐漸變藍
某一次賽後獲得　殿軍　亦得老友賀吻
那刻我領會情感　勝負　都興奮　未靠獎品
這一世　即使見聞沿路一直變
一刻永恆　懷念永不厭　風景性情人物會改變
即使故意再做一遍　情懷事後便難再現
回憶可珍藏當冠冕
幫女友抬行李　無處找美食沒心機
不忍乞丐皺眉　奉獻出餅乾極歡喜
某一次坐長途機　夜機　夢中擦過萬里
我親眼面對晨曦　天地　這種美　餘生銘記
這一世　彷彿旅遊沿路一直變
風景退後無奈講再見　不必強求時地永不變
這一剎　誰在我面前
這一天　在不久的以後再見
來日會有更多的　懷念

中女

Today I drove to North Wales- Conwy Castle. This was the first time I've had a day trip alone. Feeling was so special. It's my secret way to say goodbye to my last day of 20s in my life.

30-yr-old....是中女了... 突然 有點感慨, 尤其是自己一個人在英國過, 沒有告訴別人, 因為不想麻煩別人.
人大了, 第一件事要懂得的, 就是悠然自處, 我會努力學習的 :)

Very beautiful lyrics. (Though I haven't watched the tv drama) Feeling is described in detail, like a poem. No wonder the writer is a female: 陳詩慧.


雨水冷洗情不會淡　猛風再吹而不散
愁雲和月之間　也不孤單
妳足以傾城的兩眼　較花與草還璀璨　然而眉目恍惚飄散有一絲慨嘆
流水透徹出我倆　沿路滿佈風霜也雪亮
天空灰暗　愛得到了景仰
世間什麼愛叫純潔　妳甘願化振翅紅蝴蝶
飽經挫折　傷口淌血都不至會磨滅
世間什麼愛叫純潔　處在絕望仍力竭　留守最尾一起哪怕歷劫

舉杯暢飲河邊秀美　奏一闕曲傳千里
斜陽隨著清風　已幽幽泛起
妳的美比繁花更美　我心卻只能希冀　紅蝴蝶漫天飛很美我一生銘記
流水透徹出我倆　沿路滿佈風霜也雪亮
天空灰暗　愛得到了景仰
世間什麼愛叫純潔　妳甘願化振翅紅蝴蝶
飽經挫折　傷口淌血都不至會磨滅
世間什麼愛叫純潔　處在絕望仍力竭　留守最尾一起哪怕歷劫
世間什麼愛叫純潔　妳甘願化振翅紅蝴蝶
世間什麼愛叫純潔　處在絕望仍力竭　留守最尾一起哪怕歷劫

My belief

Doctrine of Mean, Silence is gold, Simple is the best, Humble drives you success

kitchen

If I don't study overseas, I would not have known that HongKong ladies are very clean and tidy. I'm very proud of being a HK lady.

If I don't study MBA, I would not have realised that western countries are full of stupid guys. I'm very proud of being an eastern country's citizen.

白日夢

想跟古巨基做一生的朋友
想跟金城武約會
想跟福山雅治一同夾歌, 他彈guitar我彈電子琴
想和大貓去Fukuoka玩煙火

糊了!!

First time to cook soup by the rice cooker...1 hr later...糊了!! Very upset....

New Year 2009!

Big sales after new year, bought a pair of new ear rings, happy!

Aurora

愛在寒夜中賞星, 人生中想看看北極光

想住住希臘的白色小屋, 在沙灘上騎著馬欣賞日落

想到法國南部的葡萄園喝紅酒吃cheeze&bread.

想到埃及看金字塔&獅身人面像

現在想玩煙火仙女棒